I Want Out of the Box

It will be exactly 10 days, 10 hours, and 12 minutes since I last had any communication with my Hubster. My Hubster is at NTC (National Training Center) for one month. For two weeks he's in "the box" and they take all of the soldiers' cell phones because they work with live explosives that can be set off by cell phones. I am more than half way through the two weeks and I have my good days and have had my bad days. What is helping me get through these two weeks is knowing he is safe and not deployed just yet...key phrase just yet. However, what has been difficult for me is when people ask me, "How's your husband?" Yes, a simple question to some is so complicated for me to answer. I simply say, "He's doing well." But in the back of my mind I want to say, "I don't know how my husband is doing. I haven't had any communication with him for X amount of days. I don't know if he's taken a shower for days, has eaten a hot meal, or just had the same MRE meal, or is still in the same filthy ACUs for the week, or has gotten more than two hours of sleep because he was on a mission or on tower guard... I DON'T KNOW". However, a simple "He's doing well" will suffice.

Being an Army wife has been one of the hardest things that God has blessed me with, but I truly believe that God chose this path for me because I CAN do it. My Hubster and I CAN do it. My family and I CAN do it. Most importantly, we will do it and we are doing it. I have learned so much and am so much stronger since my Hubster joined the Army. I am so proud of him for what he does every day. My Hubster has one deployment under his belt and only one more before his term ends.

So for now, the kiddos sleep with their Papa dolls, we watch videos of him reading us bedtime stories, I read old text messages from him, and I listen to his last voicemail he left me telling me to kiss our kiddos for him and that he loves me and misses me.